Financial anxiety, extremely high rent prices, and a (un)healthy dose of limiting beliefs around money did not make for breezy conversations in which to plan and manage our finances. The word “money” came with a load of shame and a lot of fear.
In writing this I am putting myself in a place I have buried deep and tried to forget. This place is dark, maybe the darkest place I have ever been. As hard as I have
The most important thing I’ve learned is that you must not let anyone try to convince you that your mental illness isn’t valid. You are not alone.
MOTHERSHIP; sexual awakenings, shamans and (re)igniting feminism
5 days after my last baby was born, it was said out loud once again that he didn’t love me. His actions in the previous months had shown that but there it was out loud, unable to be ignored.
The honest truth is, I knew I was going to get the abortion. Maybe that’s what made it so hard for me. Did I ever give the baby a chance? Was it selfish of me?
I am what’s called a “relationship virgin,” a new-ish term that got picked up and made the rounds in the vernacular – it simply means that I’ve never had a real relationship. No boyfriends, ever.
It was the first time that I had realized that what happened wasn’t okay. It was the first time I said the word, rape.